Sometimes I feel like I get lost beneath the waves…
Ocean waves washing me to shore as it pulls you further out…
Knocked down, dragged and pulled across the sea floor…
Coming up for breath, gasping, only to find that I have been forgotten….
The waves have washed me from your hearts and minds…
Sometimes it’s like you don’t see me, I have become invisible in the world...
Even my written words bring no response…
Left hanging like ripe fruit for the picking, left….waiting….
Like a moth drawn to the flame, you have hypnotized me.
Wrapped yourself around my heart and consumed me.
Like a vine your roots reach deep between my cracks.
Stretching, consuming, destroying….stabilizing.
Adding new life to a heart that had thought it knew all the love it could hold.
Like the river banks that expand during a flood,
You have changed me, shaped me soundly and surely
The hush gurgles of your waters soothe my heart
The roaring song of your waves call me to wade out from the banks
Daring me to let your current pull me further, deeper…
Singing sweet songs of life and change
Daring me to dive in and see all the wond
Friends may turn and leave
Rain may fall so i can't see
My troubles try to overwhelm
Through it all I fall to the ground
I lift my head and cry to You
My enemies may be many
But my enemies you slay
Lifting me into Your arms
Carrying me way from harm.
My Knight, Savior
You help me shed this layer
My doubt, pain and sorrow You take
Only through You will My storm break.
You're my Light in the darkness
You guide me through it all
Holding my hand, You make me strong
I surrender my all to Your plan
By my side You stand.
I always get in the say....
This my Lord is why You must come to say!
The sky is grey the rain falls
In the dead of this night your name I call.
Looking for the light to break through
Then the rain clears and there stands you.
Youre always there waiting for my sky to clear
This is why I hold you so dear
My true friend and lover
I desire to spend my life with no other.
Weve had our trials our own dark times
But through it all weve come out fine.
You are my world, my dream come true
Everything I had ever dreamt of is in you
thank you my dear, for being there to help me
for leading me when I couldnt see
you mean more to me than I could ever express
you were my knight in shini
Ready to give up
Yet ready to fight
Ready to run and ready to hide
To pull away from this thing we call life
Retreating within myself
Starting to loose all help
Falling apart
Must I go back to the start?
Why is it this always happens
I retreat within myself
Then all that happens is tragic
inward I start to collapse
and into depression I relapse
Tears form behind these eyes
Yet tears I never cry
To much buried deep with in
To much to tell you my friend
Longing to get out
to deep to see the light
Without hope insight
I know I cant take flight
Collapsing, falling apart
Wishing I could go back to the s
Sometimes I feel like I get lost beneath the waves…
Ocean waves washing me to shore as it pulls you further out…
Knocked down, dragged and pulled across the sea floor…
Coming up for breath, gasping, only to find that I have been forgotten….
The waves have washed me from your hearts and minds…
Sometimes it’s like you don’t see me, I have become invisible in the world...
Even my written words bring no response…
Left hanging like ripe fruit for the picking, left….waiting….
Like a moth drawn to the flame, you have hypnotized me.
Wrapped yourself around my heart and consumed me.
Like a vine your roots reach deep between my cracks.
Stretching, consuming, destroying….stabilizing.
Adding new life to a heart that had thought it knew all the love it could hold.
Like the river banks that expand during a flood,
You have changed me, shaped me soundly and surely
The hush gurgles of your waters soothe my heart
The roaring song of your waves call me to wade out from the banks
Daring me to let your current pull me further, deeper…
Singing sweet songs of life and change
Daring me to dive in and see all the wond
looking at the things that had been behind me i relized that they were just holding me back. I started looking to God, and relized that the stuff i had done in the past didn't define who i was, all i had to do was let Him have it all....i did and it was sooo awsome
looking in from the outside by Talli-Ann3, literature
Literature
looking in from the outside
I was sitting in my class, as i relize that those i call friends are not talkign to me...the people that are "like them" are the ones they gravitate to....
I don't want to change who i am...i'm just goign to be me....so i will continue to sit here till they relize there is more to life than all having the same style....
trying to be strong when i was weak,
trying to hide who i was from those around me...
these were weaknesses that i had seen
so i decided thats not the person i wanted to be
in the night you shine though by Talli-Ann3, literature
Literature
in the night you shine though
In the darkness You shine Your light,
when I have lost my way....cannot see
You lead me, guide me...
You shine through the darkness of life
when I can't see where I am, You take my hand,
I wish that everyone on this world knew
the amazingness of You.
You are the one thing in this world that is true,
the one thing that is Pure
The only one that loves without a clause.
You love me despite my mistakes,
you love me through all of my disgrace.
Each day I can start anew in You,
for you oh Lord, are forever true.
Your hand reaches me in the darkest of night,
You take away every part of my fright.
I need not be afraid of the things
Father. I fear I have sinned.
My child, what have you done?
I couldn't help myself. It was so beautiful. I had to feel it break beneath my fingers; its blood slick my hands, my tongue, my throat. I had to have it in my mouth. I tore at it with my teeth, peeling the skin from the bone. Like jewels, its life dripped from my tears and my scratches. They welled and slithered and dropped. Incandescent beneath the harsh light of where I had caught it. Such a beautiful creature now withered in my hands . and Father?
Yes, child?
You want to know the most delusional part of it?
Yes.
At that moment my vision became clear. Light shown down up
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someone that can design a tattoo for me. I have this idea in my head that i want, i just haven't found anyone that will draw it for me. soooo im on the lookout for someone...message me for more info:)
thankee!
why is it people always expect things to be just as they were when you/they left? It never stays the same, and if it does it doesn't work out...i mean if you don't change wit the time and become stagnant you wither and die.
I am so tired of people walking in and out of my life and when they come back expecting it to go back to the way it was before. I may act like it is, but in my head and heart its sooo different. I cant look at them the same way and deff don't want to put the effort into it that i had before. In some ways i feel i am way too nice of a person and wish i had the balls to say what i mean and mean what i say at times. Because
That its time i start writing again, its been far too long since i have written, and i'm deff trying to over anylize this..its kinda funny to think about it because it use to come so easy for me. Its like trying to walk or remember how to rollerblade after you haven't done it in a while. You know the concept of it, and what you should be doing but its difficult to maneuver at first. Life has been coming at me fast as light lately, its as if a month is a day and a year is a month. I was always told as a child that life will speed up as you grow up. I just never thought that it would go by so fast. There are times i feel like i am sitting still